It starts for me when people ask me " Where are you from?", I just never know what to answer, French Mexican I reply, then comes all the questions about why and when, then I have to go through all the countries I have lived in and born. Everytime I meet someone new they're like "wow! that's so cool", maybe it is at the begining and I cant really complain to be honest but this is my most important question I ask myself and the one that keeps coming back " Where am I really from?" which kind of links to the question "Where do I belong?".
In my heart I feel like I am mexican more than I am french but I have never lived in Mexico, most of my family lives there, the most special person to me also lives there, it's where I feel more like home.
Travelling around makes you meet lots of new people but that doesn't mean they'll be your closest friends, and yes it's cool to travel around, discover new cultures, new ways of life but it's always good to come back home or at least that's what I think. Most people I know think the place they live is shit but you don't realise what you have until it's gona as they say. The place I call "home" at the moment is in England, been there for seven years which is most of my teenage years, I love it there and I have some of my best friends there but sometimes I feel like I don't really belong there.
That's what I am feeling at the moment, I feel like I don't really belong anywhere, which makes me feel empty...
Im very open minded to all the changes that have happened in my life and grateful that they have happened but the feeling of not belonging, not having somewhere to identify me from just makes me sad. It may sound pathetic to you but for me it's important.
"The hunger to belong is not merely a desire to be attached to something. It is rather sensing that great transformation and discovery become possible when belonging is sheltered and true."
